Complaining brings suffering.
Atleast amar life e to ami tai dekhi. lets take an instance. kolkatay ekhon je marattok gorom poreche sheta aro beshi oshojhho hoy jokhon "gorom gorom" kore amra lafai ! But i have a tried and tested method. if you can concentrate on mundane things around you and derive humour or romance out of it then your attention is shifted from the heat and sweat, rather given the power of your brain, you can actually 'enjoy' this sultry weather, all one needs is to look at the brighter side of the weather! aj jemon holo. i wanted to reach saltlake by 9 am so that finishing my work i can come back by 11. kintu jeta holo ghum theke ut te deri so finally when i reached it was 10. ferar shomoy jar bari gechhi she khub chintito je ami ei rode ki vabe firbo. so i showed her my FM headphone, by clumsy umbrella and my water bottle. now i carry the pink bottle of "Himalayan" mineral water...puchho kyu? kyuki-- that bottle has some amazing product description almost poetic in nature. khub goromer modhye oi lekha ta porle besh lage :)
anyway as i was waiting for Jadavpur-Newtown bus the sun was coming down on us with fully fury, but there was an amazing breeze which was fluttering the light green young leaves of neem, debdaru,eucalyptus and some more. but the best site is driving down bypass with green trees and fields right after chingrihata...and if you notice, the gulmohor ( ba amader priyo Krishnachura )trees are like red "bindis" on a tribal woman's forehead...the flowers are as if competing with the sun's fury...calling out to say " watch out SUN! the more fury you shower we will bloom with full glory" ! krishnachura ke shongo dite majhe modhyei holud holud radha churao dekha jay....kintu krishner moher kachhe radhao jemon porasto...krishnachurar "lalimay" radhachuraro kamon fike laglo...arek ta phool ache...beguni ronger...boro odvut lage...ar shona roder aloy jeno tader beguni rong ta thikre beroy...tobe krishnachurar lal jeno shotti-i akasher sathe abir khela! bogenbheliya-o chesta korche kintu amar mote dhare kachhe pouchhachhe na.
science city ta cross korei dan-hate ekta hotel pore. dekhlam, moha anonde ek mohish tar chhana ke niye shei hotel-er shaamne shajano gachhe khachhe...tai dekhe security guard ta lathi chhure marlo...ar mohish ta ki boka..doure palate gelo...or ja shing tate ekbar ghure dnarale oi chimre moto security guard ta ke pichhoner jhhil tay fele dite parto...bechara mohish. i dislike the road from ruby to gariahat as shops/malls have obstructed the once greener view. rajdangar kachhe ashle boro mon ta kharap hoy...oto shundor khelar math...shetao rokhha pelo na promoter der nojor theke :( ei bhabte bhabte ar "karthik calling karthik" shunte shunte reached gariahat.
and then travelled back through the road on which had been commuting since last 25 years....but still feel good..feels like home...:) paray dhukchi dekhi jor kodome cricket khela cholche. amar khub bhoy lage ei bujhhi ball eshe laglo...but i pretent not to be scared and put up a stern face..nijer chhotbelar katha mone pore jay. 7-8 e pori tokhon gariahat-er flat-e thaki, thik erom roddure bibhotso kheltam... tar obsohho ekta karon-o chhilo. sunday morning flat-er shob dadarao khelte namto and we used to play harder to impress "some" of them with our batting skills...ki shanghatik boka chhilam je bhabtam bhalo cricket khelte pari dekhle kono chhele impressed hobe!!! heheh! kono chhele impressed to hoyni,bt khela ta jane prane upobhog korechi..ekhono majhe modhyei bat niye mamar bari te neme pori, bhai ebong tar bondhuder shoto apotti shotteo! kintu frequency ta kome gechhe...but still hv that wish to play cricket on a green field...literally jumping around without caring to get hurt...just the way i used to be :)...anyway back from nostalgia...
khub mojar lage parar chhele gulor enthu dekhe, thik jeno oi krishnachurader moton shurjo ke challenge kore jibon theke moja lute nichhe..!
when i finally entered our room u wont believe it felt like AC, thanks to the 10 inch thick wall and 15 ft high ceiling of this 100+ year old house :)

a shower later, it feels heavenly to jump on the familiar bed with the familiar "pay-balish" and enjoy my favourite sunday afternoon siesta , just the way i am trying to enjoy SUMMER!

Eta pore besh bhalo laglo tai ekhane tule dilam... :) enjoy!



Why do we shout in anger?
This one is a lovely mail and you should read it….. A good one too……..I am sure you will like it.
A saint asked his disciples, 'Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?'
Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, 'Because we lose our calm, we shout for that.'
'But, why to shout when the other person is just next to you?' asked the saint. 'Isn't it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice? Why do you shout at a person when you're angry?'
Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the saint.
Finally he explained, 'When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.'
Then the saint asked, 'What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly, why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small...'
The saint continued, 'When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.'


When you argue do not let your hearts get distant, do not say words that distance each other more, else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return.

Why doesn't constant trampling defeat the dandelion? The key to its strength is its long and sturdy root, which extends deep into the earth. The same principle applies to people. The true victors in life are those who, enduring repeated challenges and setbacks, have sent the roots of their being to such a depth that nothing can shake them.--- Daisaku Ikeda

Contrary to many people's belief, this has not been a "bookish" example in my life. I draw inspiration from it, because i have "felt" it in my life in flesh and blood. and hope to continue doing so....its tough but not impossible.

talking abt this quote is not a coincidence, the precise problem i overcame last year around this time...has re-appeared again with full vigour...yes may be i am swayed for a moment but not uprooted :) AGAIN this difficulty has aroused and AGAIN i will Not be Defeated.

P.S-- the pic is not of a dandelion!

state of mind

katha hoyechhilo tobu katha holo na...aj shobai eshechhe shudhu tumi ele na..

boro bhalo lage, asha-r ei gaan ta, pujor shomoy shokale club-er pandal-e bajto...bhishon nostalgic lage :)ekhono jokhon baje chhotbelakar ek muto sriti hurmur kore eshe pore mathay...

kal onekdin por amar school-er bondhuder sathe adda holo..hotat plan hotat dekha..besh lage! i mean after a hard week feels great to meet childhood buddies..and the best part is you can be YOURSELF! no inhibitions, no pretence just you..the "you" from school you miss, the "you" who had to feign different faces in different situations as the "you" is a grown-up now! chhotobelay shuntam boro hobar onek chaap, ei chaap ta amar shobcheye bisri lage..je some times you cant just be yourself...and atleast it has happened to me, i always pay the price for being 'myself'..anyway bhaat bokchi! jaihok khub moja korlam, chandrabindoor gaan, sentu...smirnoff what else do you need.i know i know i musn't drink at all, i wont seriously it was after a long time met my yaars! khushi ke mare pi li ! ;) but yes i know i have to be strict with myself, for my own sake and i guess with time i will be able to resist this temptation.and am sure it will be a test of my control power..which i really have to develope now ! :P hhhehehe! , no no , no jokes, i seriously will.

returned home and had the kind of night i love most..conversation.
woke up with slight dizziness but work keeps me fit.worked returned home and went for some more activities. well my "well-wisher" insists that i should 'relax' so replied that i am really relaxed and happy when i have a active day...its so fulfilling , a day well-spent always gives me immense satisfaction.

day well-spent holeo mon ta khoch khoch korche..
ashole jokhon tumi jano keu koste achhe, kintu tomar hath pa bandha kichhui kore tumi take shanti dite parcho na..kamon ekta helpless lage..mone hoy tahole ar nijke "bondhu" boli kom mukhe..but i guess sometimes you have to let silence speak for itself and just HOPE that very soon you will again see the Sun of Smile ..
HOPE is indeed what i have right now.

Still experimenting with this new "virtual diary" for me, so randomly uploaded one of my fav pic of myself...like this pic as its dark doesn't show my big teeth! hehehehhe!!! i had named this pic-- "NEONS n ME"